Friday, January 28, 2005

Monster Mummy

I am absofcukinglutely mad with Zareef. ARGGGHHHH!!!! Chicken pox tak chicken pox. Tak kira aaa. Tak tahan dah. He's driving me insane at this moment. I am not speaking to him sampai daddy dia balik. I'm giving him the silent treatment.

I need time out! I need a personal time for myself so that I don't go on hating my son! I need to be alone for awhile! I want to shout at the top of my lungs and I did and it felt good! Rasa nak lempang2 je sampai dia berhenti menjerit macam orang giler but I didn't!

But why oh why did I feel so wretched and horrible after that? Why did I regret yelling and shouting at him? Why did I cry and kissed him like there's no tomorrow when he cried himself to sleep? Why did I apologize profusely to him when he woke up?

It's a tough job being a full time mom but I have to do it whether I like it or not. But for now, I don't.

11 comments:

cherrytomatoes said...

Nora,

Dulu before kawin & ada anak, I always blame or even curse for those yg dera / abuse anak. But when I became a mother, I stopped blaming ppl dah, sebab dah rasa apa yg dorang rasa. Sometimes budak budak ni out of control, they are toooo bloody much, seriously. For those yang full-time housewives mmg paham la !

I understand how u feel Nora, it happened to me too, makan hati tauu ..nak nak we're on our own, no one else yg buleh tolong menolong jengok jengok kan. It's a hard work tau jadi mother 24 hours nih.

Tapi tulah, jahat or nakal macam mana pun, still anak sendiri. Adam dah biasa birat birat ni Nora, then bila dia dah tido, menyesal tak sudah -promise tak mau pukol lagi ( promise takat haritu ajer le ..sok sok Mummy dia sebat jugak, sbb degil )

xxxx

noresh said...

tu la kan... time biler dia degil kepala batu tuh rasa nak piat2 je telinga sampai putuih tapi bila dia tido rasa bersalah sesangat and nyesal tak sudah. kesabaran tahap maksimum rini oiiii... but sometimes melayang gak tangan nih jgn tak tau sampai B pun slalu sound jgn ganas2 sgt ngan zareef pasal tu la anak kita dunia akhirat.l

really appreciate your understanding. we full time moms have to stand together.

nong@kween said...

hehehehe, aku mmg kagum lah dengan full time mom/house wife ni. Mmg tabik, sebab aku jaga anak aku EXCLUSIVELY masa weekends pun rase macam nak putus urat tekak, dok jerit No! sana, no! sini... Kekadang tu kena babap lah jugak. Baby boy/girl mmg sama lasak jek nowadays..Kalau 24/7 agaknya mau aku kena nervous breakdown...

So hang in there Nora... hehehehe... :)

Along said...

Hooo...I'm with you there Noresh. I've read thousands of books on how to disciplin your childlah, how not to use rotan and stuff like that. These mat sallehs don;t know what they're talking about. Sebab tu le anak depa tak betul somo. We have to punish our children so they learn their lesson, but not excessively lah. Jangan sampai pengsan budak tu baru nak stop pukul. Hit them on their feet, never above that. Itu sunah Rasul dalam nak ajar anak.

Memang tough, nak2 now I have two on my hands. Fortunately I have a maid, so bile rasa dah tak tahan dah...sebelum betul2 meletup I hand them over to my maid. Tunggu cool down sket, then I take them back. Rasa bersalah sebenarnya bagi maid yg jaga, so I try to spend as much time with them during teh weekends.

Tapi bile dah pening tu, handover jugak. Dah tak larat nak jerit, nak kejar...isy..

mama farizal said...

I m wif Nong! Aku pon kagom ngan full-time mother/housewife nie. Aku yg kena jaga after keje ngan weekend.. adoiii dah lenguh2.. penat.. macam nak give up. After a while, istighfar.. zuriat aku jugak. Memang ada jugak times yg dah up to my nose.. uhh.. terjerit.. lepas sejuk..hug him but at d same time tell him wht make me angry over n over. :)

azrin said...

kesian... =)

Tapi aku still percaya yg budak² tunjuk perasaan tu, sebab kurang perhatian yg mereka nak dari org yg mereka sayangi. Physical presence is not enough sometimes. (Easy said than done lah kan, sebab anak sendiri pun tak dak) =)

Apa kata lebih mengajak anak² kita tu untuk lebih berbincang. Bagi dia tahu semua yg kita tak nak atau nak. Dan kena tegas; bila dia buat silap kena punish, tapi jangan pukul (bad influence psychologically). Sebelum bg punishment, warn dia dulu, kalau tak dengar juga, punish laa, letak luar rumah ka (pagar kunci la). Jgn lupa tengok juga, takut jadi apa² ka.

Pada hari biasa², tunjuk kasih sayang tu. Jgn kerana segan atau malu, kita simpan je. Budak² tak paham.

Hehehee, aku cakap je... know nothing about this domain actually. Nonetheless, selamat berjuang mendidik anak =)

noresh said...

yes ppl, being a full time mom is the toughest job in the world. it incorporates love, brute strength, elbow grease, authority, compassion, diplomacy, creativity, endurance and abnormal patience around the clock all for the price of NOTHING.

and yes azrin aka sput, it's easier said than done esp. when u deal with a 2 year old yg belum akil baligh dan berakal. reason all u want sampai besok pun dia takkan paham. thank u for your suggestions but lets see how u fair in that domain when u get one of your own and then we'll talk.

for now, i've made amends with my darling son and obviously he has forgave and forgotten. i thank Allah everyday for giving me the strength and health to do my job as a mom even though sometimes i suck BIG TIME at it.

Zai Zulkifli said...

Hehehe..sebab tulah hari sabtu je aku hantar anak aku 2 org tu rumah mak aku pasal aku nak rest, sehari pun cukuplah, without the kids. Padahal hari2 jaga anak lepas balik kerja ajer. Perhaps sebab takde maid lagi, so malam2 dan pagi2 still kena layan diaorg. Kalau dah 3 anank nanti, it's best for my mental health to have a maid (better solution in term of money too). Mana nak mandikan 3 org anak pagi buta tu oii...bapaknya siapkan diri sendiri aje, kita nilah yg dok prepare food, air, baju, mandi.
If i were a full time housewife, i would go crazy the 1st month..so respect you guys who are doing it now.

Zai

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